Cass texted me this afternoon. I was shocked and scared to see "I'm sorry for everything hope you do well and take care". After Mark's suicide, I'm a little sensitive to things that sound ominous. I asked if he was ok. He didn't reply. I waited a couple hours and asked again. He said he was fine. I said I was confused, I thought he'd wanted nothing to do with me and here he was saying goodbye out of the blue. What was going on? He replied, "i'm engaged k".

.....WHAT??? We broke up December 7, 2009...it is now March 25, 2010. A grand total of 108 days have passed. 3 and one half months. And he's engaged. I asked who, when, where, etc. A girl he's known since kindergarten, 2 weeks ago, she's from Utah.

I want to talk to him, I have so many questions. Was he dating her while dating me? Is she the reason he left me? Is that why he wouldn't have sex with me that whole last month we were together? Are they getting married because he knocked her up? Did he ever go to California? Was it all a lie to get rid of me? Why did he even tell me? What was he feeling so guilty about that he had to tell me? I never would have known had he not said anything.

I had my closure. Who the hell is he to take it away from me like this? I want to see him, but I don't. I want answers, texts are easy to ignore. Do I really want to know all these things? What good will it do me? He took my closure away. I can't believe he would do something like that.

R.I.P. Mark

/>Mark Joseph Gallegos
(February 21, 1970 - March 10, 2010)

Beloved son, brother, uncle and friend, Mark Gallegos passed away Wednesday, March 10, 2010 at his home in Salt Lake City, Utah. Mark attended Bennion Jr High and graduated from Taylorsville High School in 1988. Worked as an Optical Technician. He worked at Cole Vision, Eye Masters, Sam’s Club, OGIO. He loved camping, mountain bike riding, being an uncle and rough housing, four wheeling at the sand dunes, fishing and telling stories. He loved every animal he has ever owned, and his pets were his kids. His dog George had to come to each family event. He loved his neighbors, being able to associate with them. He will be greatly missed by everyone, especially his family.
He is survived by his mother; Mary Bechtel, step-mother; Patricia Held, sisters; Tammy (Bryan) Doney, Liesa (Matt) Hubble, Kellie (Victor) DeSimone, Carol Gallegos and brothers; Robert Gallegos, and Larry (Kerri) Stevenson and nieces; Jessica Doney, Tisha Doney, Sammi Whiting, Jackie Gallegos, Katrina Callister, Jessica Gallegos, Miranda Sorenson, Sara DeSimone, Stacey DeSimone, Hunter Stevenson and Hadlie Stevenson and nephews; BillyJoe Doney, Patric Doney, Bruce Gallegos and Chance Gallegos.

Funeral services will be held Monday, March 15, 2010 at 11:00 a.m. at the LDS Meadow Ward (1955 W. 400 N) in Salt Lake City. The family will meet with friends prior to services from 9:30 to 10:45 a.m. at the church. Burial will be in the Redwood Memorial Cemetery.

Good News!

I got the car looked at yesterday. It behaved, or misbehaved I should say, for the mechanic, and he took a look. It was exactly what I thought it was, and they ordered the $1100 part. They called me this morning, it was in already, so tomorrow before work, I'll get it installed...for the $100 deductible only!

I hate being poor

Remember that little Rav4 that I love? She's sick. :( I took the car into the dealership for an oil change in mid February, and mentioned when I was there, that the car doesn't want to accelerate sometimes. It clunks, it hesitates, etc. They took it on a test drive, but nothing happened. They ran a basic test on the transmission and said it was fine. Ok...great!

It behaved itself for 3 weeks or so before it started doing it again. This time, I took it to Midas and asked if they had any idea on what it could be. They said not really, take it back and ask if there are any recalls I don't know about. I researched it online instead and found a Technical Service Bulletin regarding a transmission component called the Engine Control Module or Unit, ECM or ECU, that is faulty in '01-'03 Rav4's. Greeeeaaat. I spent the rest of Sunday in tears.

Today, I drove it in for it's Annual Safety and Emissions tests, which ironically, it passed just fine. (And for free...covered under warranty! Happy surprise there.) Then, I took it to the Larry H. Miller Toyota Dealership, where I took it on a test drive with a techician. Luckily, the car did it's thing for him. He was aware I knew about the TSB, and agreed that was probably what it was. Within half an hour, I had it diagnosed, and found out...it's a $1135 part. *GASP BIG STARE!* Again, I'm quite lucky, because it will covered under my extended warranty with just a $100 deductible. Whew!

I don't have the money to pay for a new transmission, I don't have the money to pay the $100 for that matter...but that will be tons easier to come up with than the $1135. I also have the $139.50 to pay in the registration fee due at the end of the month. AND I'm STILL waiting on my state tax refund.

I filed my taxes on Feb. 10. I had the Federal return on Feb. 18. Still waiting on the State. I called the tax place, and they told me the State ran out of money and had to refinance! WHAT!?!?!? She told me to call back in 10 days and check in again if I hadn't recieved it. That's in 4 days. I'm really counting on that money...it was supposed to be to pay off my credit card, but it looks like it'll be going toward the car if I get it in time, but more likely, on the credit card to pay for a tiny portion of what I'll owe VISA at the end of this month. Blah.